Getting Back on Track

10 Jan

This is a hard process.  I’ve been on Weight Watchers since the end of summer, and I’ve lost 15-20 lbs.  There is a 5 pound range due to my crazy binge eating during the holidays. 

After my recent trip to Old Town with the future hubby, I said I would get back on track.  No more eating out, no more late-night chocolate, no more fried foods.  I need to find the inspiration to get back on track.

After I had been on Weight Watchers for a month or so (and had been seeing the results), I remember thinking to myself while reading health/fitness blogs, “how can these people plateau and stop counting points?”  I couldn’t comprehend stopping such a good thing.  The unfortunate truth is that after losing about 20 lbs., I hit a totally self-induced plateau.  

I got tired of measuring, tired of trying.  I stopped going to my zumba class, and I got easily discouraged with running.  And then the holidays came, and I was baking cranberry pies with sticks of butter in them and cauliflower gratins with mounds of cheese.  I was eating lots of chocolate and mashed potatoes and hosting a New Year’s Eve party with the theme of “Decadence.”  And then it was my fiance’s birthday, and there was no point in trying to watch what I’m eating just to fail — or so the thought process went.  Excuse after excuse, because after all, it is the holiday, right? 

Which brings me to today, a day in which I planned all of my meals and I tracked all the things I needed to track… until dinner.  Today is my fiance’s actual birthday, and after our long day, he wanted to go out to eat instead of having me cook.  I agreed and we went out to eat.  I ate fries and a burger.  I went over my points for the day.

Usually I spiral out of control with guilt and shame — I feel fat, good-for-nothing, my entire day is shot.  However, I am working on reframing and turning my negatives into positives.  Or, failing that strategy, at least acknowledging where I made good decisions today along with my poor choices.  I did do a good job tracking today, and even though I went out for dinner, I still tracked all of those points — something I hadn’t done in a while. I made good choices for breakfast and lunch.  I have part of my dinner made for tomorrow (Weight Watchers recipe of potato au gratin — if it turns out well, I will post the recipe here).

I guess what I’m trying to say is that I cannot snap my fingers and automatically get back on track.  Maybe I need to start out with baby steps, and just try to track every day.  I want to make better choices and find that motivation again.  I want to break this plateau. 

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