Journey Update

1 Dec

The holidays are a hard time to recommit to changing your life. Halloween hits you in October with its sweetness, and then there is Thanksgiving with its license to gluttony (my personal favorite holiday) and there is the holiday season (which somehow lasts for an entire month with cookies and cakes), followed by decadent new year celebrations. No wonder most people recommit to their health with new year resolutions — after a whirlwind of overindulgence, I always feel the need to too!

But here is the thing — I participated in a clothing swap right after I got back from Europe and got rid of all of my size 12 and most of my size 10 clothes. Getting ready for work is super difficult, and I’m not able to wear my cute new size 8 clothing because I’ve indulged to the point (with the wedding and honeymoon and holidays) that it can no longer be considered a cheat. I totally fell off the wagon, I hate the way I feel, and I also hate the way I look again.

I want to get back to the way I felt before the best events of my life happened.

So I’m recommitting, during the holiday season. I’m exploring my options — should I stick with online Weight Watchers?, should I start going to meetings?, should I start tracking calories instead?

One thing I’m going to do is make it to the gym three times a week. I went on Wednesday and felt good, and I’m getting ready to go today.

I’m also not going to beat myself up. This is a journey, and I floundered for a bit. Life got good and then it got crazy, and now I’m entering the holidays with a determination not to gain all my weight back. Journeys can take a lifetime and I’m starting to realize that this one probably will. There will be no miraculous point where I’ll need to stop watching — unfortunately, I love food too much for that.

It’s a matter of having one small moment of indulgence followed by resuming the healthy lifestyle, not just saying eff it and eating like a crazy person for a week because I overindulged at one meal.

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I want to feel the way I felt on this day — at peace, content with myself, and about 10 lbs thinner.

Here is to fighting the good fight, even with temptation all around me in the form of hot chocolate and Christmas cheer 🙂

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